i have always been noted as Ms. Tardy.  i just coined that name myself [hehehehe....].  i have always been punctual when i was in my home country.  i remember waking up at 5:30 AM and getting ready for whatever task is there to prepare.  but then things changed, i leave home for an 8 am work time at 8:10.  and you guess right, there is that feeling of i will be earlier tomorrow and of course become later tomorrow...

this is really bad!  snoozing every ten minutes just to laze off then rushing for a quick shower and a quicker breakfast. 

but today was different.  i was up early, ate a lazy breakfast and arrived at work 30 minutes before call time.  everybody was shocked [guards, office cleaners and the works]! i was too, but it was a good feeling having the office all to yourself and getting productive.

i think i will do this again!

hoping and wishing is for free, so i might as well indulge myself in the luxury of dreaming and wishing.  i do not need fancy cars, clothes or anything material (of course if they come, it will be an added bonus) because you will soon be weary of them and yearn for more. 

my one wish is that i will become a mother.  i do not have preference on the gender of my offspring, i know noli wants a baby boy and my mom wants a girl.  for  me, a boy or girl does not matter as long as s/he is healthy, beautiful, full of virtues and intelligent.  i will become the most loving mother, i know i will.  last time, i have not wanted motherhood so badly.  but now, it seems to grow into me.  there has been pressure from everywhere and they are kind of hard to ignore now.

we have tried many times, but every month, i see the disappointment painted on noli's face when that monthly visitor comes.  i have been checked and rechecked by gynecologists and so did noli.  all is fine and in their correct places they said.  i know it will come in God's perfect timing, all i have to do is wishing and hoping and praying that someday my child will come.